Sing, O Barren…
Isaiah 54 commands the barren woman to sing, to praise the Lord. It commands the barren woman to increase the size of her tent (home) to the fullest it can be and to prepare herself and her home for the children she is promised.
Over the last several years of my life, this chapter has reverberated in the halls of my soul. I’ve always loved to sing, but in recent years I’ve made a concerted effort to sing any chance I get. I’ve done all I can to never turn down an invitation to sing a solo or sing in a choir. I’ve thrown myself into singing my praise to God, around the house or wherever I’m given an opportunity.
As for increasing the size of my tent, that’s been a tricky one to figure out. I buckled down and worked hard to get out of debt, making room in my finances for children. I organized our home and lives in a way that can accommodate children, not seeking full-time employment after our marriage to devote myself to getting our house in order and to make myself available to be a mother. I started taking pre-natal vitamins as soon as we got engaged. I went to homeopathic and medical doctors to be sure that my health was as good as it could be to welcome a pregnancy. I even painted our spare bedroom/office a color that would be good for a nursery – fighting back the fear that I would one day regret that decision.
And then I waited, praying for God to hear our prayers and send us the children we so desire. On April 16th of this year, we were delighted to discover that God had answered our prayers. The at-home pregnancy tests flashed joyfully “pregnant”! As I looked at that single word, flashing repeatedly and boldly, I felt a sudden quietness come into my heart. I expected to jump and leap and act crazy when I got this amazing news, and I was certainly happy, but I also trembled from within.
A child! Finally, someone of our own to love and nurture and pour our hearts into. I’m so thankful I have nine months to prepare for this child. I’m so thankful God has given us this gift. I’m also full of gratitude for the peace and joy I feel to be able to raise a child with Rick as his or her father. I truly couldn’t think of a better man for the job. Thank you to those of you who prayed with us. We are so blessed.
Psalm 13 (Amplified Bible)
1HOW LONG will You forget me, O Lord? Forever? How long will You hide Your face from me? 2How long must I lay up cares within me and have sorrow in my heart day after day? How long shall my enemy exalt himself over me?
3Consider and answer me, O Lord my God; lighten the eyes [of my faith to behold Your face in the pitchlike darkness], lest I sleep the sleep of death, 4Lest my enemy say, I have prevailed over him, and those that trouble me rejoice when I am shaken.
5But I have trusted, leaned on, and been confident in Your mercy and loving-kindness; my heart shall rejoice and be in high spirits in Your salvation.
6I will sing to the Lord, because He has dealt bountifully with me.
I promise you, the singing will continue!